Not sure what to do about the Robert situation, not that there is a situation, which is probably the problem I am having. From the bit I know I like him and it seems he likes me, however, we have such different schedules that I think nothing will come about, unfortunately. I kind of just want to give up and say that it is not going to work, but I also feel like if I give up I will never know. My thinking is I will do my part and continue trying until he decides that it is not working, which I have a funny feeling will be very soon. It is one of those things that I think if we could figure out a way to work around the schedule thing and things when well then it would not be a problem, I know, duh, that is obvious. I think I am setting myself up for a let down, which I have gotten very good at doing that. It is like I just continue to think that I live in a perfect world and everything will work out the way I want it to, but it never does, so everything I build up in my head just causes a bigger let down then I slip into this depressed phase. It would just be nice to have someone in my life again. The thing I miss most is having someone to sleep with, and I mean just that sleep. It is such a different better sleep when someone is there with you, it just makes me feel safe and warm and it is so comforting. The other night when I slept over at Robert’s it really made me realize this. Just the slight wake up before you fall back to sleep and realize you have someone’s hand on your leg, or arm around you, wrapped up with each other, is the greatest feeling. It would also be nice to have someone to share things with, the simple things such as eating or watching tv or walking. Anyway, enough of that…..