I am pretty upset and somewhat dissapointed and I think I am slipping back into a depressed state. It seems like me telling my friends about the gay pride events coming up is like telling a closeted person that they have to go out themself. I mean come on, this is meant to be fun, you are gay so go out and enjoy yourself…..I’m starting to feel like I would just prefer to go by myself, but of course if I had to go by myself I would probably end up not going.
This weekend I had a great time hanging out with Kelly, but then at the end I felt like I was annoying him again. I am so confused by him. I really do still like him, but I feel like I am doing a good job of just being a friend. Sometimes I get a vibe that maybe he does like me also, and then shortly after that is when I get the feeling that I am annoying him. I could not be more confused by that. I think the hard part about this is if he does not like me in a dating way that is fine, and I am glad he wants to be friends, but I wish he would stop confusing me (not that I think he is doing it on purpose).
I feel like I have very few friends and sometimes it is just so hard
I am hoping that this private thing really is private